Signs of Guidance

The beautiful thing I am reminded of is how soft and subtle the Inner Voice of Knowing is. It can come in like a whisper of smoke, that gently feels its way to a thought form, a crazy nudge to call someone, a little ‘oh, just do it anyway’ breeze in my brain that when acted on absolutely blows me away with what it delivers, with who I am connected to, with the information that is so perfect and heartfelt and just what I needed to hear. Sneaky…and always there for the taking. Thank goodness I listen.

The recurring theme this morning is the thought that nothing has meaning except the meaning we give ‘it’ and I think this applies to ourselves as well: we assign our ‘value’. So how are you valuing you today?

I’m sure you’ve heard the phrase “Be careful what you want because you just might get it.” For me, that puts such an onerous energy on a great experience. What if what is meant on a deeper level is this: That if what you’re saying you want isn’t the deepest truth about who you are, it can be challenging when it shows up.

Why am I saying this? Because that’s what I’m experiencing. I have been given the opportunities to fulfill what I say I want…now it’s up to me to step up and claim them…in other words, stop just talking about it and go for it. I have to say it has given me pause for thought in a really good way…and a whole lot of “knocking knees” excitement too. Wow.

I got a chance this morning to feel into my negative self (always fun) and have a great talk to amplify it and see it for what it was, out in the open. What’s here now? Knowing that as long as I’m willing to do whatever it takes, whatever I want will be…in fact, already is.

Have a sublime day!!!

Yesterday was a turning point, an amazing day…a chance to see my self. I can’t say that it was the easiest or most fun. I awoke after five hours of sleep, uneasy and feeling like I needed to ‘do’ something, and did…started listening to some tapes from a Nurturing Parent class, and sent a distress email to my beloved coach.

I can say that today I have come full circle, it feels like, and am in a ‘higher’ orbit, more aware.

What did I learn?

I learned that I can ask for help (and I do mean literally and from the Universe) and get it. My coach called me and helped me see what was going on: a brew of entitlement and indulgence. I would not have seen this on my own. That all these groups and activities I am inundating my self with is an indulgence. I immediately flashed on the movie “Chocolate” and the scene when the mayor of the town is in the candy store window, passed out from his indulgence. And I also gave in to my very real feeling of being tired…not an indulgence…interesting. I was also blessed with a vision of my future.

After our conversation, several other things fell into place.

This morning when doing my gratitude list I had several ahas; here’s a few:

I am grateful to change my life from entitlement and indulgence to clarity and purpose

I am grateful for the opportunity to see where I am not committed

I am grateful that when I have focus, everything brings more meaning and dimension to who I am

Today is the best day of my life. It’s here, I’m here, and all the resources imaginable are here for whatever I want to be, do, or have. It’s all waiting for me to wake up and start participating fully. First I must be who I am, then do what I need to do, to get what I want.

I know this is extra long. Thanks for reading it.

“The original substance wants to live as much as possible in you; it wants you to have all that you can or will use for the living of the most abundant life…Your part is to focus and express the desires of God.”

Wallace Wattles “The Science of Getting Rich”

I opened to this page this morning and have been wanting to put it out to you all day. It describes what I have come to experience on a deep level. What all the Signs seem to be underlining again and again.

It’s so beautiful outside right now.

And inside too.

Today has been a day of learning, standing strong and looking at the bigger picture. Life seems to agree that the only constant is change and growth.

I have a special request. A girlfriend has had her twin boys prematurely. So far so good. Her husband is there and supportive. I ask that if you feel so moved to send a thought out to them and the doctors, in any manner that you like.

When I was walking this morning, I was thinking about the world and my profound love for it, I was thinking about how magical and abundant it is. Everywhere I looked there was life looking back at me. The wind, clouds, ocean, birds, flowers, brush, sand, kelp, people, dogs: all sharing this beautiful space together.

I was also struck yesterday at a gift store in Big Sur. A stand with some stuffed-toy birds caught my eye and I started playing with them, squeezing them and listening to the different bird calls. It attracted a woman and her little boy, who was fascinated as was she. It made me so happy when she bought him one as I had been thinking so much about birds recently and how they often get overlooked.

I am so present to a peaceful acceptance of where I am and how I feel. It came to me at the beach last night and was accentuated this morning again. How blessed I am to be alive, to have all the opportunities and beauty that surround me. The friends and food and sunshine and fog. The amazing diversity that is there for all. I sat and watched the surfers and kids playing frisbee and my dog running back and forth and the sun going down and felt no boundaries, no separation. Just oneness. Lovely.

UNIVERSE YOU KNOCK MY SOCKS OFF!!!!!!!!!!