Signs of Guidance

 My sign was going to be about pruning away what we don’t need in order to encourage our own growth…the gardener was here this morning, so it seemed like the theme. And then I got distracted and didn’t send it. And then this showed up and I was so moved I’m sending it instead. I love how we can be headed in the wrong direction, in the wrong medium…how did we get here…so turned around…and then something comes up, just when we are soooo tired, and gets us into the boat and back to shore. So beautiful to see. So sweet and dear.

Wow..

 It is becoming clear to me that there is a definite ‘build factor’ when things start coming in…people, events, opportunities…ever increasing. I imagine the Universe really enjoying getting creative with all the things that could be possible matches and sending them along. It is also seems as if there are no limits. And that if I have a broad range, they do too.

And it is necessary to speak up and test the edges…ask for what I want and be open to it showing up in ways that have the essence of what I want if not the exact form. That’s actually fun. A bit challenging…which is the point.

And so I keep extending my own ‘limits’ to what I say ‘Yes’ to.

 In my usual grab-and-read ritual, was the idea of sending myself out to infinity and then receiving within myself to infinity, and where the two intersect is Awakening. I loved it because I had this image flash in my mind’s eye of the tide, the wave coming in, and then sometimes there’s a backwash wave going out and when they meet there’s a crescendo effect. That’s what it feels like to me, to inhabit an awakening moment.

Full body contact!

 This morning I had the felt experience of what I describe as ‘At Oneness’. While walking Comet, all of a sudden I was in a realm of hypersensitivity to my environment, the light through the leaves, the sound of a bird call, the pulsing green colors, all the details of the hillside, the garage door I was passing, the trees…on and on. It was a full body experience, was delicious and extra-ordinary!

I thought about a couple of messages, from different sources, that I received yesterday.

One message came from a book, “Eat, Pray,Love” by Elizabeth Gilbert: “Happiness is the consequence of personal effort….You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings.” This struck me for two reasons. One, I hadn’t given myself the time to read a pure-pleasure book for many weeks (telling myself that I had other more important things to do..as if denial of pleasure or infliction of punishment creates change…not). Yesterday I gave myself the gift of lying in the late afternoon sun in my yard and reading for the pure pleasure of it…and here was that passage. OK…. 

This was in direct support of what I had heard that very morning from Rev. Michael Beckwith at Agape:paraphrasing here…that it’s not about waiting to participate (in life, in joy)…express joy now…practice holding that vibration until the world bends to it…living life anew each day and recognizing what is revealed each day…as an adventure of discovery…everywhere, all the time. 

Absolutely thrilling…really. It’s like the felt sense of recognition of the world as living breathing whole of which I am a part…a participating part.

As a follow up to yesterday’s Sign, I am also drawn to the power of certain words, words that stick out in conversations, words that seem out of place in coaching sessions, words that carry extra energy. For me or for other people, uniquely to their lives or in my own life. These words raise their hands and ask for further exploration, deeper definition. And promise to be a treasure map to our deeper interior.

I woke up in the dark sometime early this morning and a thought went through…can’t remember exactly what it was or the word that was used…however, what came through loud and clear was: words are creations. Every word that comes out of my mouth is a creation. I need to be care full and cognizant of what I choose to say and HOW I say it.

This had come up yesterday in a coaching session with a client as well: instead of ‘working on yourself’ shift to ‘working with yourself.’ How does that feel? Very different energy, just by changing one word. Powerful when it comes to staying in awareness of engaging attention.

Not a new concept. Just a tap on the shoulder.

I woke up in the dark sometime early this morning and a thought went through…can’t remember exactly what it was or the word that was used…however, what came through loud and clear was: words are creations. Every word that comes out of my mouth is a creation. I need to be care full and cognizant of what I choose to say and HOW I say it.

This had come up yesterday in a coaching session with a client as well: instead of ‘working on yourself’ shift to ‘working with yourself.’ How does that feel? Very different energy, just by changing one word. Powerful when it comes to staying in awareness of engaging attention. Not a new concept. Just a tap on the shoulder.

It is becoming increasingly clear that listening to my inner voice/intuition is so important. The Universe delivers what we want through people, places, events, things. I need to heed the call, sometimes quite literally, so that I can be delivered to! Otherwise it’s kind of like calling the pizza delivery man and then not being home when he gets there.

Last night before I went to sleep I asked my Higher Self/ Spirit/ God to help me, to give me guidance and information when I woke up around a situation that has been a source of confusion and upset…it felt as if I hadn’t gotten to the deepest level..which is why it was confusing. So sure enough, when I woke up, the information downloaded into my consciousness. “That’s it.” It fit.

Why do I often forget that all I need to do is ask? The answers are there. If I’m not seeing them, I ask for it to appear in a different form, more verbal. The answers are all around me anyway, coming in a phone conversation, in a book I was led to buy, in watching the crows in my neighborhood. It does take some effort to fly. And then sometimes it’s all about gliding.

I get a lot of information from Nature. Probably because I spent so much time in it as a child, being a part of It, like climbing high into a tree and swaying with the wind. Nature for me is renewal and peace. There is a particular image that has stayed in my mind for several days now…from when I was in Carmel…

It is of the ocean current coming ashore. After a stormy day of big waves and lots of wind, sun, but cold and blustery air, was a day of calm, warm to the point of walking with a tee-shirt on the beach and the ocean was very calm. I remember standing looking at the shoreline of this cove and being transfixed with the image of the water coming in so velvety on the grainy sand, withdrawing, leaving the darkened outline which faded, then the velvet swath again. Over and over I watched and it was never quite the same yet somehow so restorative, as if to highlight the ever present regularity that life comes back to again and again. 

It’s inherent in the system. And although the rhythmic continuum is ever changing it was telling me that under all the show and drama rests a force that I can always count on to be there for me, that holds me. That we are one and the same.