Signs of Guidance

This morning is a testament to a couple of things, one being that my thoughts do create my reality. Something that I have been thinking about recently has come to pass, not through my own action but through the action of the other person involved. I thought I would be in control of the timing. But they moved first, in a way that was in alignment with what I had been thinking. Seems like confirmation that the Universe moves people places and things in alignment with our thoughts.

So even though it’s not when I was expecting it, I am embracing it as perfect timing. I am being challenged now, not later. Deep breath in and release any limiting belief around it…or me. 

 I spent last weekend assisting a class on Miracles. What did I get as Signs?

• That it feels good to be of service, especially when I have a melt down and find that I am too supported…and that touches my heart
• That we are all yearning to be all we can be
• That the heart has such an immense capacity
• That I am blessed by the company I keep
• That we are love
• That miracles are happening all the time everywhere in all ways if we can open to them
• That we are Divine

On Sunday morning I thought I should check my emails. There was one from someone I had been thinking of contacting…and it included an offer for something I have been dreaming of creating, something that I would have never thought of asking that person for. Lovely surprise. And nice solid confirmation that ‘it is done’ at the moment of asking, only waiting for me to ‘catch up’ to it. Thank you.

 What keeps coming up for me is the clear message that all I need to do is honor my feelings. This doesn’t mean the feelings of low self worth, scarcity thinking etc. but my true feelings: what is calling me into action, what is coming from my sense of purpose, or caring, or giving back or taking responsibility. In other words, what’s important here.

I have been worried about Comet, my dog, recently and not really getting satisfaction at the vets. So yesterday I, on impulse, called a referral vet that does acupuncture. There were many other things that my mind said ‘needed to get done’ and yet my heart said otherwise.  It was a magical day and conformation of all the wonderful unseen help that is out there…for all of us.

The whole day unfolded into the exact experience I needed on a deep soul level. I experienced beauty in the gorgeous day and so much love from all the people I was in contact with. I allowed myself to go visit a friend who was in town, instead of rushing back to my duties. I was relaxed and happy, expanded into the caring I needed. And said ‘no’ when I felt like it was appropriate.

Best of all I got a wonderful surprise bonus that night when I got home. A call from a wonderful woman who is coming to look at Comet’s teeth (which I have been concerned about and wanted another opinion on) and…she needs coaching. How perfect does it get!

 Early this morning I was lying in bed. It wasn’t quite light out. I was in a semi-meditative state, thoughts drifting in and out, centered around what makes for powerful change, what can I use to amp up the learning and awareness in my life and in those around me. Something wonderful came to me…fit so beautifully…and then before I knew it, it was gone. I had rolled over and the static of my mind had come in and buzzed it away.

I hate it when that happens.

I rolled back over as I have found that memory shifts from one side to the other. I did get another inspired thought…but it wasn’t exactly it. along the lines of it but not as poetic.

Long and short of the lesson: practice being still so I can hear my own answers…and take note of them.

I do know it had something to do with the power of words. I love words. I love to paint pictures with words. And I see all the time how our words are like the magic seeds along the trail to help me find my way home. Change a few words and get closer to or farther away from ‘the Truth’ of whatever it is I’m saying.

 The word for today is responsibility. It came up last night, and again this morning, both in a reading I did, a client call I had, listening the The Secret…and in Yoga.

No one can make my life but me. No one can think my thoughts, dream my dreams or make things happen for me. I am the one I can count on, and I am connected to the Divine, which provides all I need. Everything comes through me. it all starts within.

As I used to say ‘the good news is, it’s all about me, and the bad news is it’s all about me.’

Being response able is where it all comes together. Staying in the moment and knowing that what comes up, I can handle…as best I can.

 I woke up early this morning…it was raining really hard. Love that sound. Got up and looked out the window. The moon was so bright and shining and the clouds were moving across it, the sky behind clear, stars sparkling. Awesome. Truly I was in awe, like a child, moved by the magical moonlight.

Back in bed I thought about being on this planet, in the space that has no end, with other planets, moving, spinning…through nothingness. It was almost scary for a moment in its hugeness. And then it was incredible. Exciting. To be a participant in this beautiful experience, this awesome, incredible experience of life.

 Last weekend I had a profound experience of how truly magical life is. I was standing over Comet, as she was drinking water. I leaned down, circling my arms around her, totally engrossed in her beautiful sweet energy. I felt her heart pounding against my hand, this tiny fluttering beat, steady on my palm, so close to the surface. Huge waves of awe went through me.

How amazing life is, how amazing there is a force that is built in that serves and nurtures all living things…the sap in the trees even. I felt at one with that force and incredibly grateful for its beautiful presence everywhere in my life, giving me life without any effort on my part…except to notice and receive.

I have missed you and missed sending out my emails. I have been out of town and have not had a chance to be on line despite the fact that I took my laptop with me. So many things happened for me during this time. However I want to keep this short and am going to stick to what’s appeared already this morning.It has been a time of emotional tumult, in a good way, like turning over a flower bed, sifting our the rocks and weeds, putting amendments in the soil. And it can send me into a ‘doing’ spiral and self doubt if I turn this task over to my ego to figure ‘it’ out.

It’s taken a couple of bumpy days to get back to center. I’ve been led through several channels back to three important teachings:

There’s only so much that can be accomplished by effort alone. I need to surrender to Spirit, knowing that what I want is known and is already present. And it will show up in my ‘reality’ when I’m ready…in fact it’s already in my reality if I have the eyes to see it and the heart to believe it.

I need to trust that I am competent, and that I am trustworthy. When my negativity is telling me otherwise, I can go back to prior successes and remember what I’ve accomplished, for others and for myself.

There is never a moment when I am alone. Constantly, if I’m open and paying attention, I am guided.

Yesterday for me was a day of subliminal noticing. How well was I matching up with what was around me: people, events, environment. When was it ‘easy’ and when did it feel like I was ‘working at it’ or feeling tight? Since I was ‘running around’ getting ready to leave town, it didn’t hit me until this morning. And it’s not that it’s different information than what I’ve been aware of, it’s that it fell into place in a much larger way, more of an overview.

My goal is to be different each day, to have a new ‘aha’ each day. For me, that comes with paying attention and recognizing what’s being given to me each day, be it ‘material’ that I can touch, or insights.

If we’re listening (without paying attention) to a negative chatter in our minds, we begin to believe that what it’s saying is true. That we really don’t know what to do, or how to be…that we are lacking something. And it seems true because those thoughts create those feelings, and the feelings are real…they do feel bad, and so seem to be reflecting the truth of who we are and what we can have or accomplish. But that’s not who we are.

So my invitation today is to notice something differently…even if you have to make it up or pretend. If we’re pretending anyway, why not have some fun with it?

 For several days I have been seeing termite dust by my kitchen sink. Where is it coming from? The trick is to find the exit hole so I can shoot the anti-termite product into the right place. It wasn’t clear, so I tried different spots each day. Still dust was showing up.

This morning I started looking higher up on the window frame…and there it was. I had surveyed the ceiling directly above, but this is on the frame, so the dust falls like a waterfall from high up. Hadn’t thought of that possibility until this morning.

Made me think: when I can pinpoint where a termite nest is in me, chewing away 24/7, I get to clean it out.

Deep breath here…followed by a big smile.