Signs of Guidance

Yesterday was a turning point, an amazing day…a chance to see my self. I can’t say that it was the easiest or most fun. I awoke after five hours of sleep, uneasy and feeling like I needed to ‘do’ something, and did…started listening to some tapes from a Nurturing Parent class, and sent a distress email to my beloved coach.

I can say that today I have come full circle, it feels like, and am in a ‘higher’ orbit, more aware.

What did I learn?

I learned that I can ask for help (and I do mean literally and from the Universe) and get it. My coach called me and helped me see what was going on: a brew of entitlement and indulgence. I would not have seen this on my own. That all these groups and activities I am inundating my self with is an indulgence. I immediately flashed on the movie “Chocolate” and the scene when the mayor of the town is in the candy store window, passed out from his indulgence. And I also gave in to my very real feeling of being tired…not an indulgence…interesting. I was also blessed with a vision of my future.

After our conversation, several other things fell into place.

This morning when doing my gratitude list I had several ahas; here’s a few:

I am grateful to change my life from entitlement and indulgence to clarity and purpose

I am grateful for the opportunity to see where I am not committed

I am grateful that when I have focus, everything brings more meaning and dimension to who I am

Today is the best day of my life. It’s here, I’m here, and all the resources imaginable are here for whatever I want to be, do, or have. It’s all waiting for me to wake up and start participating fully. First I must be who I am, then do what I need to do, to get what I want.

I know this is extra long. Thanks for reading it.